心·语

有时候不是不懂，只是不想懂；
有时候不是不知道，只是不想说出来；
有时候不是不明白，而是明白了也无能为力，于是就保持了沉默。

有些话，适合藏在心里；
有些痛苦，适合无声无息的忘记；
有些回忆，只适合偶尔拿出来回味。

很多事情，当经历过，自己知道就好；
很多改变，不需要说出来的，自己明白就好。

正在播放：周杰伦 - 我落泪情绪零碎

Happy Halloween!

Today is the Halloween night. Normally, we don't celebrate but I wish to celebrate, cause it looks fun! Anyway, today is the last day of October, but I hope today is the last day of November. Always thinking about what'll happen right after my STPM, makes me energize and motivated! I guess everyone needs goal to urge themselves and me too! Nothing to blog as it was the same thing also. Oh ya! Photography club's farewell party just held in few days ago in Puchong and I guess nothing much for me to post about that party.(click here for photos) In fact, I thought the restaurant was very grand and luxury before we went, but.....Okay, it do grand and luxury, especially a Big Red Ferrari was catching everyone spotlight, but you know what, waiter's attitude always the prior. Perhaps this "Standard" restaurant not suit us! Using an iPad to make some order is good, but please be sure that your iPad is functioning always! So, another BAD here! Fine. Thinking positively I found a lot of great restaurant in Puchong. Let's have some try with my buddies next time. Okay. It's 2.40am. Good night, peeps!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN !

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I got this when I was reading newspaper.

人，一定要想清楚三个问题：

一，你有什么；二，你要什么；三，你能放弃什么。你有什么，是评价自己现状。要什么，是明确自己目标。最难的事，自己不知道或不敢放弃什么！

这点恰恰能决定自己想要实现的目标是否能实现。没有人可以不放弃就能得到！

and that, I guess it was my second one. I'm still finding the third one. 

My econ's teacher keep on remind us about the countdown.

I used to be nervous and anxious about the day coming during last few month

but now? chill and relax.

When I was thinking I will study abroad in China, there have no needed for me to study so hard right?

Ya, I got my co curricular marks today.

The CGPA was below 60. even lower than those who bla bla blaaaa. WHATEVER

okay, I don't want to mention who was "those"

What I wanna say is, I'm so slacked about activities in my form 6 life.

maybe the effect of too many band life in my secondary life.

okay. done.

I got my 3.08 for my trial. and it's over 3.

I was not so excited actually.

In fact, I heard the school lower the grade purposely.

maybe it was just the luck.

59 for a B-

luck I guess.

I always wonder how much shall I get for the real exam.

Let's pray. I just hope it will over 3 for indeed.

not much. 1 or 2A are enough for me.

I don't feel to study today.

but the time is countdowning.

but still don't fell to study.

I'm imagining the day after 14 Dec everyday

but I guess I will miss the life. of course.

I hate the life with jobs.

back to the 1st and 2nd option. both are secret.

now playing - Manhand    -准时收听

hiking

I kept telling myself, "One more month!" 

Ya! One more month left.

You're nearer to the hell and heaven

It's remind me when Ms.Lim said the story of hiking.

It's totally the kind of feeling right now.

When you're going to reach the peak, you must pass through the most slanting road.

The slanting path always makes people gave up even though it just a few step to success.

She said," Luckily I got one professor who kept on telling me, 5 more minutes! 5 more minutes!"

Actually is 1 hour more.

But you'll never forget how beautiful the view is right after you climb over the peak.

I just hope when I reached the peak, the view won't be too bad 

=)

致弟弟的一封信

好轻易地离去 

轻易得让我不肯相信这就是事实

我没有其他人的仁慈

我没有我伯伯的宽宏大量。

如果换作是我，

我不可能对你说：“请不要自责，我们不会怪你！”

我说不出口

年纪不是借口。

是生命。

用生命来交换的原谅，代价太大的。

没有人知道你下半辈子都在做什么，

但，

愧疚，

应该是你下半辈子的负担。

不敢哭得太惨，

因为我不是应该最伤心的那个。

弟弟，

我的心很痛。

大家的心都很痛。

痛死了。

想到，就很痛。

不敢哭，

因为我们都怕你走得不好。

弟弟，

我的心很痛。

大家的心很痛

就这样，没了。

没了。

这是奶奶跟我说的

不重要

都不重要了。

所有想要坚持，想要奢有的东西

都不重要了。

没有什么比自己身边的人待身边还要幸福了！

都不重要了。

我只想要，我想要他呆在身边的人可以好好的，

我什么都可以了。

弟弟啊

只希望你要好好庇佑非常爱你的家人

 也请你啊，

下辈子过得快乐点，平安点，开心点，可以享受说不能享受的。

哥哥姐姐们都会想你的。

我们都会想你的

希望你，

在另一个世界可以很好很好的，

很好很好地过生活。

 不要有挂念！  

一路好走

姐姐会想你的。

毓筠姐姐上

走了








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never been so bad before

now playing : DBSK - Insa

It's now October and I felt I was even more nearer to hell and heaven.

I shouldn't blog for the time being now.

but still.....

ya. I've been blowing off how miserable my stpm life is.

and now I'm still the same situation.

can't stop thinking the day without stress of exam

I mean, everyone have stress in every stage.

but how come I didn't sense it will be so terrible during last time.

it's the worst I swear.

back to the first sentence

I was even more nearer to hell and heaven

I guess many ones will get what I wanna say easily.

time flies.

stpm is coming nearer and nearer to me.

this is the hell.

and of course freedom is coming after the nightmare

this is the heaven.

I don't know is this the stress?

I don't know how come I will surface it so terribly now.

until I wanna bang my head badly, headache.

maybe it was the process.

I heard someone said that "Transformation always painful"

and now, I hoped everything I did was worth.

I don't want to talk about my result.

as there've nothing for me to be proud at all.

I mean, I did worse than the last time.

I can't blame teacher, but I did.

I should work hard more.

but you know sometimes, I felt so tired being working hard with no border line.

receiving the wrong information.

i was exhausted.

 1 more month to go.

god bless me.

courage me.

please

I know, I should appreciate as

it was the gift of God.

so, I should say thank you right?

after this please.

感慨

如果有如果，我想问你，为什么就那么不珍惜生命？

一通突如其来的电话，把我们一家人的心情搞砸了！

尤其是我读书的心情！

发生事故，大家都慌了！

尤其是她们那一家。

幸运总是不怎么站在他们那边。

命水，这回事，真的，认了！

刚想起去年我们的谈话，

顿时觉得向来不怎么和我们聊天的堂弟，

有好多我没有的感慨

觉得失败，是我突如其来的感觉。

应该珍惜。

凡是都要珍惜。

哪怕让自己伤心生气地事情也要珍惜！