MY 21ST!

We know each other since last year Nov, and the 02-11-2013 was the first anniversary we've met, not the together one. We met each other when he just sat beside me in a flight although he was not suppose to sit beside but he did and I just don't know maybe he just did not want to sit beside the girl they came with IDK. I'm on my way for granny's funeral and he's on his way for vacation and we just know each other. The entire 5 hours flight, we just can't stop to talk. This is crazy, you know? I know. teeheee :D Well. If someone just asked you,"Are you crazy in mind?" I will definitely said,"Why not?" I don't know how to explain sometimes, just poured a smile toward and that's all. No boyfie thing again here.

Let't talk about how am I celebrated my belated birthday, that's a good question right? hehehe. I went to Shanghai and celebrated with my boyfie(sorry for mentioning him again). He gave me pairs or earring & necklace and we went to some France cuisine and a lot of travel in Shanghai and I thought this was the romantic one and that's all. He gave me accompany from Shanghai to Hangzhou by giving some lousy excuse and I did believe him and let's the story began. When we reached my campus, I said bye-bye to my boyfie outside the dorm and he just turned his head away like he was in a rush, I even went to the kitchen and peak on him but I can't found him at all. Well, I guess that's its so I stepped back to my dorm and met my friend in the kitchen, she was holding her iphone. When I opened my door and stepped in, my door just closed itself, i thought its was wind or what. I try to switch on the light, no lights turn on and I thought my roomie forgot to pay. A cellphone on my desk keep rang and it was my roomie's cellphone.(no curiosity at all because she always left her cellphone at room)Well, I guess outside will be better, so I turned around and try to open my door, but the stupid door is pulled by someone outside and I finally figured out something happened, my washroom was locked and I can't pull my door open. DUH! "I've been pranked!" A ping-pong ball suddenly pop out in the room and I had no idea where the ping-pong ball came from and the projector is ON. The horror movie "Conjuring" was screening on my wall and I was like...."okay, played in a horror way!". Please don't think that they got me. When yeehor came out and say "AHHHHHHHHH" I was like....."Hey! Someone is calling this phone, Sandy(my roomie)"  and other peoples came in and start blabbered "Oh my god! why the heck this fella called in this moment? Why the internet is not functioning??!@!@#!@#$@#$@#" Hahahahahahahahahahahaha 

And after all they make it for the second times, I walked back to the corridor and started to pretend that nothing happened before, but I left my keys inside. HAHAHAHAHAHA It's that still make sense? hahahaha IDK,  I felt fun! I met my boyfie with my friend who holded an iphone just now at the corridor and I finally know what's really going on! 

Second try? U can imagine how funny will be. BTW, I did appreciate what they have did to me, they tried and tried for N times and mine was the worst. I love you all guys and the boyfie who hidden this secret all the way I was beside him. hmmmmmph! 

back again

Doh! everything was the fault of this seems-to-be-open-society-but-its-quite-orbit-all-the-time country. No facebook, no twitter, no blogger since I'm using my smartphone, what can I do? Rely to the software that I got in here(weibo,QQ) fuck! what to do? Neglect the software that I used to have over there(twitter,facebook,blogger...). fuck! I'm not in Aussie; I'm not in UK. and I'm not in Malaysia. I'm just in this panda land. what to do. restricted website everywhere, restricted contents everywhere, restricted news everywhere. The people of this land filtered all the news and information which comes from the outside; they personalized the things that come in to their land, they controlled everything which comes from the source .what to do. and I'm still studying mass com stuff at this restricted country. It wasn't my daddy's choice; it wasn't my mommy's choice; it wasn't my school's choice, it's all about me. 

I'm swearing I didn't mean to complain it as I'm not a Singaporean (no-offense, oops!) I'm used to it already. The language, the subject, the people, the weather and so on. I'm used to it already. But tons of questions circling my mind always, how can the fate of this country will be if they keep continue being so "deaf" about the world. I won't mind to admit that this country is strong, but doesn't it seems to be a little sicked already? No. should be injured (seriously damaged). I just read some sentences last few days, they said, "The personality of a person is definitely the result of the society". I always glad that I was born in Malaysia. I always glad that I was in this land which fulfilled with millions of passion and spirit, I love my country not because of the weather (maybe-yes), not because of the food (maybe yes too), as I love every part and every pieces of this land. Maybe I can make it like this, the culture and environment made up my personality and bla bla bla. I can't state it down one by one, because it was too many.

So how am I right nw? I'm doing fine. Status is kind of changing recently, everyone. so take note. I'm going off for class. bye!

P/S: Can't imagine I'm blogging during class. teeheeee :D

I coloured this during the Spring (It was the flag of my country and state)

nowplaying: The Script - No words

祁求您了！

我很怕，就好像六年前一样。

那时候不懂事，还没那么怕。

我现在光想都觉得好可怕。

怕得不停地流眼泪。

擦干了，又再湿了。 

我只希望，没有事情。

不想说如果或是万一。

人，健健康康就好。

以后的事情，我不敢奢望，

我只要一家人整整齐齐，健健康康就好。

祁求您了！

Fo0oL

You're Ridiculous thus Hilarious! Can I ask you something? Are you still thinking that I will stay still just like the past two years? I keep smirked when you send me those foolish texts to my cellphone asking me whether still had the same feeling like you? I admit to you that I USED TO have something on you, I waited and waited your message by day and day last time, and I thought I'll be alright when you said you have the same crush on me but you still hanging someone else there. I don't wanna mess all these things up, and I think it's just the nearness of us, that's its. Just like I texted you, "yes of course I did miss you or why I came for contact you by sudden, but we're just friend and of course the feeling was just friend, am I right? We're nothing but just friend, right?" And what you answered me was like some dirty badass slut. C'mon! I don't own any promise to you just like you don't gave me any answer of yours. You played the fool and now declared as a truth? Don't mess with me! I had enough! Thinking about the past and I swear I gonna and already change! We are never ever ever getting back together! Just like what #TaylorSwift sang! Ain't that same shit! Go fuck yourself or the girl you want to when you need LOVE! Foo-0-ooL WOW!

tiny countdown

1 days and 12 hours and the 30 minutes,  I will be on the plane, and going back to my LAND.

You never know how time flies!

A LONG po-st

I was more than months for not blogging, but please don't try to think that I'll shut down my blog. It's been about 4 months that I usually type in Mandarin, write in Mandarin, speak in Mandarin but not ENGLISH, so please do forgive my grammar, vocabulary and so on. You know it's hard to find someone to talk in english, as I'm in China. sigh. 4 months separation for my hometown and I was like.......A GOT LOT THINGS TO SHARE.

Remember that how I hesitated and wondered the choice that I made, and I can confirm hat maybe it's a stupid or fool decision that I made for myself, but I REALLY ENJOYED IT VERY MUCH. You know sometimes you have to choose something that will kill you softly, I mean the lifestyle that we can easily fucked up. hahaha! But the main point is, I did enjoyed the life that will kill my softly. okayy, I just kidding btw. I'm doing fine everyone. Still remember the hardcore times that I'd undergo, and that was what we call CULTURE SHOCK, everyone. Did I tell you that I used to tearing when I can't find my roommate beside when I was awake, as she went for class? Oops! yupe, I guess everyone will did that right? Did I ever tell you that when I finally can call my daddy, but can't really talk nicely to him, because I was crying beside the phone, and so as my dad did. What you think? Maybe someone will just said the same things that my parents told me. I'm telling you that, I am chameleon! 

So HAPPY 2013, guys. Especially for the one who is still reading my blog. About the end of the world, I have nothing to say, but I used to believe it last time. Who cares? As long as we're still alive, except my  dearest nanny. Sort of missing her right now. Yupe, she passed away last October, and I rushed back to Malaysia. It was like............ptttffkkk! (Keep for myself) I MISS HER. Okay, get back to that. For definitely everyone got their life contented when they started their University life. You're out of control. Well, I mean parental control. teeheee! It's the time for all of us to study how to be a human being just for yourself. You have your world, you have to fix yourself, you have to study how to live, you're doing all these things just for yourself, but not someone else and so on. Okay, no philosophy i tau. 

So, I will be back to my hometown for not more than 23 days, so the bucket list will be done just a few days before my flight. aha! I wanna meet up my buddies and dearest, I wanna eat as many as I can, I wanna shop as tired as I can, I wanna drive wherever and whenever I want, I wanna gossip as I did last time and....! Okay, Its about 1 morning and I think I gonna stop here. I got eight thesis to complete and I was like HALLELUJAH!! WTF?! The first semester is killing me crazy! OMG! How long I blogged today. Goodnight, peeps :)

P.S: You know how hard to blog in China? 

Music Playing: The Script - Hall of Fame