我忙吗？

说我很闲，很明显，一点点。

但是，光想要怎样去整理，大包小包地打包就足够你想一天一夜了。

说得自己忙一些，其实只是不想再去办一些事情，好让别人主动一点。

我说得那么白话，我想是朋友的，都应该知道。

可惜，知道了是一回事，但往往都知道他们都是，你看我，我看你的态度。

所以，

如果没有，我也不是很意外，我也不会很介意，坦白说。

这几天我会努力地po，好让以后有个回味的地方。

威尼斯


夜了，散了！

人生没别的，总是需要一个人好好地活着

不想仔细去算算自己到底很剩多少时间可以浪费，就连现在怀着的心情都懒得去感觉，理清然后叙述。自己还能怎样地去利用这短短的数日，我想应该是浪费，和尽可能的做一些自己想做的奢侈的东东，是目前自己给自己的理由吧。在这空框的八个月里，我想了又想都是那几个问题，我想这就是所谓的“留学前焦虑症”吧！（自己发明的词，不过科学上是承认滴）唉！人生没别的，总是需要一个人好好地活着嘛！反正，船到桥头自然直嘛。

说真的，如果要好好地叙说现在的感觉，真的很长，很多。只不过不想那么肤浅地用三言两语来表达。唯一方法，就是不去想，不去感受，把它好好地收藏在心上就好，让他有个重量也好。（我好像提过了呼？）



其实，我还有九天。（明明说好，不算了吗？怎么又来了呢？）（没办法啊！不然怎么收拾行李？）
最近每次上到这里来时候，都不知要说些什么了！

25 days left

25 days left. 

刘心－一开始

词:易燃 刘心 曲:刘心

一开始总会在意别人对我说的话

一开始总会有情绪爱理不理的想法

可是我慢慢听啊 随着他变化变化

为什么还是有个声音叫我快些回家

你是不是也有过迷失自己的经历

付出了全部努力还是被别人看不起

但我没想过放弃 不停累积来证明

当我再回到这里 不多说什么你也会相信

over over 怎么能够 刚是梦开始的时候

我还是很相信我的一切 只因一份爱 让我疯 让我冲

坠落 坠落 怎么能够 忘记梦延续的势头

在那一座最高的山峰 你会看到我 看到我

聚光灯亮起 我已 迫不急待向前冲

准备了太久 现在自信心就快要爆棚

不想说太多 等我凯旋之后你自然会懂

走过困境现在换我给你光荣

感谢你对我说的每句话

都温暖了我要我别怕

一个全新的我已整装出发(已出发)

I WANNA SAY LOVE TO LOVE TO LOVE (WANNA SAY LOVE TO LOVE TO LOVE)

over over 怎么能够 刚是梦开始的时候

我从来没怀疑我的一切 只因一份爱 让我疯 让我冲

坠落 坠落 怎么能够 忘记梦延续的自由

在那一座最高的山峰 你会看到我 在回头

rap:从来都没这么相信 感觉自己就快成名

那时候我再看着你 谁在笑呢谁在哭呢我该说什么

把你的手借给我 把你的爱借给我

把全世界都给我 让我带着你和梦想飞过这山丘

over over 怎么能够 刚是梦开始的时候

我从来没怀疑我的一切 只因一份爱 让我疯 让我冲

坠落 坠落 怎么能够 忘记梦延续的自由

在那一座最高的山峰 你会看到我 在回头

最近如果觉得有些烦心或者有些迷失方向的朋友，不妨可以听听这首歌。

没啥目的，就想介绍好歌给大家

超励志又好听，无限循环。呵呵呵

【转载】倘若累了 用一个微笑 开始新的生活

给自己一个微笑、相信自己会挺过每一次的艰难、
　　
　　给自己一个微笑、相信自己会过得更好、

　给自己一个微笑、相信自己会很安静、没有杂乱、没有繁华、没有心跳、
　　
　　给自己一个微笑、相信自己会勇敢会接受、那残酷的现实、
　　
　　给自己一个微笑、相信自己的憧憬不再渺茫、不再无奈、
　　
　　给自己一个微笑、相信自己身边的人不会是虚伪不会是欺骗的代言词、
　　
　　给自己一个微笑、相信自己的一切都会好起来、而且会更好、
　　
　　给自己一个微笑、相信自己的难过自己的失望到最后都会换来快乐、
　　
　　给自己一个微笑、相信自己的未来会辉煌会有成就、
　　
　　给自己一个微笑、相信自己会长大、会成熟、会读懂一些人会看透一些事、
　　
　　一个微笑、代表着一份期待、
　　
　　一个微笑、代表着一个承诺、
　　
　　一个微笑、代表着一丝温暖、
　　
　　一个微笑、带给人们一份清新、
　　
　　是否会有那么一个人、用一个微笑代表着悲伤呢？
　　
　　不知道、我也不想知道、
　　
　　也许、许多年后、你会记得还有一个人这么笑过、
　　
　　用一个微笑悄然无声的走出了你们每个人的世界、
　　
　　那时的欢声，那时的笑语同，那时的痛，那时的泪、
　　
　　用一个微笑开始、同样也用一个微笑去结束、
　　
　　岁月如梭、
　　
　　一笑而过、
　　
　　有人说、人不能总活在回忆里、那样会在回忆里迷失了自己、
　　
　　用一个微笑、开始新的生活、
　　
　　仰望天空、
　　
　　星星给了我一个微笑、
　　
　　让我开始不再流泪、
　　
　　用一个微笑展示真正的自己、
　　
　　

矛盾

到了我们这种年龄，其实还真的蛮矛盾。该幼稚点还是该成熟点，自己也很苦恼。大步走还是停靠，自己都不知该如何是好。看着远方，可笑的是自己到底能走多远，坚持多久，然后大家就你看我，我看你，就这么地过了一年，也许有些人就真的这个样子过一生。

距离我去念书，也剩不到5个星期。豁达点！

犹豫

其实，难道自己要的是什么，都不知道吗？说白点， 其实心里早就有个底，只是欠缺一个可以把他合理化的角色，来支持我现在的决定。 所以犹豫。犹豫犹豫的，又让自己给闭了起来。

选择一：浙江大学

选择二：马大

选择三：理大

我想我知道了。

尊重。负责。自己的决定

最近的我，真是病惨了我。发高烧，上吐下泻，喉咙肿，伤风，咳嗽....etc 

舍都有！

我从意大利“肥”来了！

大家好！由于现在已是凌晨的关系，又好想po一下，但有碍于明天是工作天，就非常无聊的在这里跟大家说声，我从意大利“肥”来了！那里很好玩！只是食物就有点.......还是自己国家最棒！好啦！就到这。放几张照片让你们欣赏欣赏。跑人！

Florence

The Leaning Tower - Pisa

Venice

Milan

Rome

无聊的一po

时间如箭！这好像不是我的型！

（嗑嗑）

好！我想说的是，原来真的可以一眨眼就过了将近5个月

在这5个月里，说实话，没干什么大事真的。

除了，申请还有考试，就是工作。

生活郁闷到一个不行！不过渐渐爱上这种简单。

不过，就是缺少了点............热情！

再过两天，要去意大利玩咯！

心情平静得好像佛堂里的大师.

就是找不到像之前到上海的那种激动.

难于形容的“那种激动” (算了！原谅我吧!)

也许是知道了意大利是所有扒手的世界，所以有些担心！

眼看朋友一个个接着出国念书，出社会工作，有些还赶上结婚的轨道，还有生孩呗

就觉得时间真的不留人.

上一秒你还在和他或她嘻嘻哈哈地谈着从前，下一分钟，就被告知要出国念书。

上一个星期你还在某个商店遇到他或她，另一天，就被邀请到她的结婚派对。

你说人生儿戏不儿戏？

最近在围脖看到了这样一个算是“格言”的句子：

别和小人过不去，因为他们本来就过不去；

别和社会过不去，因为你会过不去；

别和自己过不起，因为一切都会过去；

别和往事过不去，因为他们已经过去；

别和现实过不去，因为你还要过下去。

说到变化，我也渐渐习惯了.

也不想多说什么阿公阿嫲的故事了。

总之，一切随缘.

想努力的，尽量努力.

努力了却不及，就再随缘吧

说到修养，最近好像有点破功！超尼玛！

滚了！

2012年的第一次剪发，无可否认，剪后的确心情好的不得了

It takes long time to grow an old friend

you know what?!

"Never stop dreaming!"

It's the slogan from The North Face.

YESH! Malaysia is listed in the Alive World Tour of my baby boys.

All I've to do is to pray hardly, sincerely by my finger crossing.

that they will be here right before September.

As I told you guys, the blog readers, that I might not in Malaysia if I succeed for the study abroad matter.

Okay! I've been so rare to update my blog since Twitter is the easier way for me.

But......I still can't miss you, Blogger!

Not going to talk about my working stories. Nothing special except unchanging people, unchanging gossips topic, unchanging...etc. sigh

Okay! We just celebrated someone's 21st birthday last Saturday.

We did trick him like I planned to, just to surprise him.

And of course, he got fooled by us.

The party was enjoyable, delicious food, average fun.

The people were laughable, interesting and many more although we used to have a gap between us.

But we enjoyed.

What I wanna tell is the feelings.

I felt touched too when I create the idea and of course the present.

Although it was just cost about 20 bucks something just for the photo frame and the pictures for everyone who will involved.

But...........priceless!

Argh! 

show you guys a peak of the present.

Get to go. Working made me sleep earlier everyday. Is that a good thing? Perhaps.

" It takes long time to grow an old friend! "

;

Working is bored to me. Just like many ones else, I do have a Monday Syndrome, but a bit lighter than the life with study. You know, when the Sunday is going to an end, and here comes the Monday with same-old-work, faces the same old people, doing the same old paperwork, going to the same old places....etc. SO, I got to choose my University's course nicely, as I don't want join the Monday Syndrome's group. It's hard for me to make a pack to repeat what I'd been doing everyday. Can you imagine, you're doing the same things every weekdays in the coming 60 years (you have a long life, then perhaps).

Someone said that to me recently, "Do you think you're still living in your own space? I mean, yet, you're not in the world. The world is changing, especially the people beside us. "

Honestly, I am.

About this question, I am not surprised at all. Nothing else, just a fact for myself.

I chose to stay calm and eyes-closed doesn't mean that I'm afraid to accept the changes.

I guess I'm a bit over. bye

Hold it back

不可以。就是不可以说累。

为了梦想，我不能停。

我只能什么都听不见。

我只能什么都感受不到。

我知道，舍不得。

为了我的执著，我只能坚持。

我只能不断地努力，努力着。

我追，是因为我渴望。

我不想，以后才来后悔和埋怨。

以后，可能会有受伤的时候。

但为了梦，受伤那么一点，算得了什么？

为了保护我的信仰，我只能更加地坚持。

因为我相信，

" You are the one, that keep your dreams alive." 

But you will never know, if you don't really try." 

你好吗？我还好。

想po个内心的，但想想觉得别人没必要读你的内心场白吧。
但还是想说说近来的生活。
没别的，就无聊地工作着。
考试完了，旅行去了，成绩拿了。
也该想想自己的方向。

我讨厌没有目标的活着。
所以，锁定了想要出国的念头。
没别的，就想履行曾承诺过自己的事情。
虽然受到很多人的旁白，但还得坚持啊！
不然，以后怎么活下去。

浪费吗？拿了那么不错的成绩，竟然选择出国。
说真的，我拼了命地读，也只不过想证明自己可以到哪里。
现在证明了，我也没什么好遗憾了。
毕竟，那一年半的日子，不是好过的。

老实说，虽然目标定了，课程也想好了，但。。。
还是不能百分之百确定是不是自己想要的。
也许，在向前走的路时，我才会更了解自己多一些。
我不怕犯错，我只怕后悔。
所以，现在只能多做自己想做的事情。

说实在的，人在世，还是多做一些让自己开心的事。
当然，也别忘了身边的人。
没有什么事比“后悔”来得更捶心捶肺了。

惜。福

在布置房间的时候，多手地拍了下来，（我老兄与我）

updated, finally!

Since the last post was the day before I fly to Sabah.

Alright, here some update for the reader(although i knw just a little of that)

I'm back from Sabah for more than 1 month of course.

And had my Chinese New Year right after the trip.

I enjoyed myself a lot in the trip.

And of course I realized it's doesn't matter where you're going, it's about who you're going with.

That's the point.

Everything in Sabah is beautiful.

Unlike West Malaysia, you can just walk on the street without awareness.

I mean no one will come and grab your handbag suddenly.

the place was so beautiful and peaceful for me.

I love the trip not only the beauty view, and also feeling

It's been a long time we gathered together like this.

I love when we snorkeled together in the 2 island.

I love when have my para-sailing with my dearest. 

I love when riding the only-one-fall banana boats with the loudest one.

I love when forest climbing with full of shouting, even there was many Koreans there.

I love when the moment we had our canopy walk which like the end of world is coming.

I love when we bumped into the "Rock Pool" just because the hot spring were not enough for us.

I love when we changed the same rumah school t-shirt and walked around the KK.

I love when we hang out in the night for some dancing and beers.

I love when we sneaked to other places for some drinking with 3 gossip buddies.

I love when we bought and cook breakfast for ourselves.

I love when we reach the beach 4 hours earlier just to watch the sunset.

I love when we met a Taiwan-Indonesian couple and make fun with them.

I love when we dance and got recorded just to wait for the sunset.

I love when we drank like a rich guy beside the beach with the RM10.00 coconut.

I love when we walk for more than 30 minutes after the sunset just to have our Peking Duck.

I love when we played like someone who haven't been to playground before. 

I love when we played the heart attack card games and laugh like tanjung rambutan's patience.

I love when we keep on xin ji here and there.

I love everything in Sabah.

Here's some photos which I love the most.

I'll try to detail the Shanghai trip.

Thank you, everyone. Have a great day :) 

Re-demo to Sabah trip.

And yet, still got 5 hours left,

and I need to go LCCT for my Sabah trip.

Hope everything will be fine.

I mean, the weather, the games, the peoples and also THE PLAN!

Wait for my updates ya

KK here I come! :D

P/S: damn tired for the whole day house cleaning. CNY maaa

过期了

再一次，把歌听完。

同样的歌，

同样的歌词，

同样的对象，

同样听的人，

但这次的感觉，已经很不一样了！

原来，感觉已经慢慢，慢慢地随着时间，过期了。

再怎样地回味，都寻找不到当时的“五味”

我，终于醒了。

其实，很早很早的时候，就已经醒了

只是不想那么快就放下

好了！

适可而止。

晚安

心·语

有时候不是不懂，只是不想懂；
有时候不是不知道，只是不想说出来；
有时候不是不明白，而是明白了也无能为力，于是就保持了沉默。

有些话，适合藏在心里；
有些痛苦，适合无声无息的忘记；
有些回忆，只适合偶尔拿出来回味。

很多事情，当经历过，自己知道就好；
很多改变，不需要说出来的，自己明白就好。

正在播放：周杰伦 - 我落泪情绪零碎

Happy Halloween!

Today is the Halloween night. Normally, we don't celebrate but I wish to celebrate, cause it looks fun! Anyway, today is the last day of October, but I hope today is the last day of November. Always thinking about what'll happen right after my STPM, makes me energize and motivated! I guess everyone needs goal to urge themselves and me too! Nothing to blog as it was the same thing also. Oh ya! Photography club's farewell party just held in few days ago in Puchong and I guess nothing much for me to post about that party.(click here for photos) In fact, I thought the restaurant was very grand and luxury before we went, but.....Okay, it do grand and luxury, especially a Big Red Ferrari was catching everyone spotlight, but you know what, waiter's attitude always the prior. Perhaps this "Standard" restaurant not suit us! Using an iPad to make some order is good, but please be sure that your iPad is functioning always! So, another BAD here! Fine. Thinking positively I found a lot of great restaurant in Puchong. Let's have some try with my buddies next time. Okay. It's 2.40am. Good night, peeps!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN !

;

I got this when I was reading newspaper.

人，一定要想清楚三个问题：

一，你有什么；二，你要什么；三，你能放弃什么。你有什么，是评价自己现状。要什么，是明确自己目标。最难的事，自己不知道或不敢放弃什么！

这点恰恰能决定自己想要实现的目标是否能实现。没有人可以不放弃就能得到！

and that, I guess it was my second one. I'm still finding the third one. 

My econ's teacher keep on remind us about the countdown.

I used to be nervous and anxious about the day coming during last few month

but now? chill and relax.

When I was thinking I will study abroad in China, there have no needed for me to study so hard right?

Ya, I got my co curricular marks today.

The CGPA was below 60. even lower than those who bla bla blaaaa. WHATEVER

okay, I don't want to mention who was "those"

What I wanna say is, I'm so slacked about activities in my form 6 life.

maybe the effect of too many band life in my secondary life.

okay. done.

I got my 3.08 for my trial. and it's over 3.

I was not so excited actually.

In fact, I heard the school lower the grade purposely.

maybe it was just the luck.

59 for a B-

luck I guess.

I always wonder how much shall I get for the real exam.

Let's pray. I just hope it will over 3 for indeed.

not much. 1 or 2A are enough for me.

I don't feel to study today.

but the time is countdowning.

but still don't fell to study.

I'm imagining the day after 14 Dec everyday

but I guess I will miss the life. of course.

I hate the life with jobs.

back to the 1st and 2nd option. both are secret.

now playing - Manhand    -准时收听

hiking

I kept telling myself, "One more month!" 

Ya! One more month left.

You're nearer to the hell and heaven

It's remind me when Ms.Lim said the story of hiking.

It's totally the kind of feeling right now.

When you're going to reach the peak, you must pass through the most slanting road.

The slanting path always makes people gave up even though it just a few step to success.

She said," Luckily I got one professor who kept on telling me, 5 more minutes! 5 more minutes!"

Actually is 1 hour more.

But you'll never forget how beautiful the view is right after you climb over the peak.

I just hope when I reached the peak, the view won't be too bad 

=)